i just went to go for my first run in forever at a new trail.. and the trail was under construction. i walked a few min and then they turned the sprinklers on.
welp, that was fine. i guess i’ll do some just dance. first zumba class tomorrow! :)
i rejoined ww a couple of days ago by thurs and fri i had plans to go get unhealthy dinners, so i decided saturday would be the day. slightly hung over, i just need to go grocery shopping.
i realized i am not a clubbing person anymore. not sure if i ever was.. i think i just do it to make other people happy. i’d rather stay in and have a glass of wine and watch a movie with a friend. tonight is cinco de mayo and i will definitely be staying in eating frozen meals. i actually can’t wait to eat them again.
the last day of spring classes in this week! wed night. tues night i have to take my final and wed night i have to speak in front of a class about a project i did. i definitely have major anxiety when it comes to speaking in front of that many people though. i wish i had enough time to fit in a public speaking class, but my classes are jam booked.
plan today: follow the plan. maybe go to the gym? definitely go walking mon, tues, and thurs morning. then back to my first meeting thurs!!
as if i didnt have a reason to move on years ago- it is now official. as carrie would say “were over, theyre happy”. sucks. i wish i could say im happy for him, but ill always hate him. always.
i am SHOCKED. it has been about a month since my last weigh in and i have only gained 3.6 pounds. looking back at all the fast food and drinking, that’s not too bad. i was expecting to see 199 on that scale, so happy it was only 193.
i can lose 3.6 pounds by next tues.. i can! and be back at what i was. ahh so relieved.
dinner tonight is grilled chicken with spinach, peppers, and onions. also, completed my worked out and burned about 250 cals (i think). im just happy i worked out for 45 mins.
so i guess my new mood today can attributed to this random ass dream i had yesterday. i met someone that i actually liked and it was a good, old, familiar feeling.
i decided to get back into the dating game- but i’m still SO picky. i follow my gut instead of my heart which causes me to meet less guys. my gut is always nervous.
i need to go back to my faithful WW. maybe i did it for the wrong reasons before, but you know its bad when youre scared to look at the scale. i’m going to follow the plan and then weigh in next tues. i LOVED feeling like i lost weight and was starting to feel better about myself.
i dont know if its the gym that scares me away from exercising, but i’m going to start walking. starting in like.. 15 mins. then i will come home and do homework.
i NEED to start bettering myself. the semesters almost over, and i was hoping to be down 20 by this point. i probably could have if i stuck with it. oh well. let that go and start over!
my other life problem- WHY AM I ALWAYS SO POOR?! i have to pay my car thurs, along with my CC bill, phone bill, and buy my school book. not possible. especially since i have to pay back WW.
so $210 car
$45 WW
then the rest on friend time.
i have to write an interview paper about someone who has an addiction/life problem/or disease. i should just write about myself. i have a life problem. MY LIFE IS A PROBLEM.
it’s crazy to see how open people are about their drug abuse. i just took a klonopin because i have been crazy anxious all day. i rarely take them. this is probably the first time i’ve ever even wrote openly that i take them.
i searched through the tags and saw all these people talking about taking 14 of them/snorting them/making deathly combinations. so sad.
tomorrow i will get my mid-term grade. only 4 weeks left of class (thank the lord). i probably won’t make it past 10 tonight, i’m hoping i can get most of my homework done.
THIS!
I could re-enact this with complete accuracy after this week.
